You never get to play it, the rackets
Are always missing or else the net’s dissolved
During the winter, and there are mole holes
Where they shouldn’t be, wherever that is.
Still, it’s a promise every year, when you see Winter
Dumping its useless, silver mischief on your kerchief.
And the indifferences which have wrecked your life—
Whole aisles of carelessly abandoning boyfriends, lovers
turned oddly awful or litiginous, even close girlfriend betrayal
Escalate like some tremendous terrible temple, turned upside down
O, that sunny redemption
Of the difficulty of dirty days!
Then the Badminton of Great Barrington stands
Like the little sad statue of Christ suffering in the projected
“untasteful” neon pain on your lawn
Never used to.
Aisha Sabatini Sloan
Episode 22: “Form and Formlessness”
In an essay specially commissioned for the podcast, Aisha Sabatini Sloan describes rambling around Paris with her father, Lester Sloan, a longtime staff photographer for Newsweek, and a glamorous woman who befriends them. In an excerpt from The Art of Fiction no. 246, Rachel Cusk and Sheila Heti discuss how writing her first novel helped Cusk discover her “shape or identity or essence.” Next, Allan Gurganus’s reading of his story “It Had Wings,” about an arthritic woman who finds a fallen angel in her backyard, is interspersed with a version of the story rendered as a one-woman opera by the composer Bruce Saylor. The episode closes with “Dear Someone,” a poem by Deborah Landau.
Rachel Cusk photo courtesy the author.
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