The bananas in the basket
on top of the refrigerator
give me pleasure
out of all proportion
to what I paid for them.
A little while ago, for the fifth
time today, I remembered
their existence, their perfection.
For the fifth time
I thought “I’ll have a banana!”
it seeming at the moment
the perfect thing to do.
But again the very thought
seemed to complete them, and me,
in a satisfaction which instantly
occluded itself, and I had
no banana. Or, I had
perfect bananas, but ate none.
But this cannot go on indefinitely: I am
getting hungry, and hungry, especially
for a banana. I know they are still
on top of the refrigerator. I have them
clearly in mind. I swear this time I will
eat one, perhaps as many as two. And then
I will probably revert to my former pattern.
This is really
getting the most from one’s bananas,
and is possibly the ideal behavior toward bananas
in the higher synthesis of pleasures.
Aisha Sabatini Sloan
Episode 22: “Form and Formlessness”
In an essay specially commissioned for the podcast, Aisha Sabatini Sloan describes rambling around Paris with her father, Lester Sloan, a longtime staff photographer for Newsweek, and a glamorous woman who befriends them. In an excerpt from The Art of Fiction no. 246, Rachel Cusk and Sheila Heti discuss how writing her first novel helped Cusk discover her “shape or identity or essence.” Next, Allan Gurganus’s reading of his story “It Had Wings,” about an arthritic woman who finds a fallen angel in her backyard, is interspersed with a version of the story rendered as a one-woman opera by the composer Bruce Saylor. The episode closes with “Dear Someone,” a poem by Deborah Landau.
Rachel Cusk photo courtesy the author.
Subscribe for free: Stitcher | Apple Podcasts | Google Play